I cannot believe how miserable I am. I'm at Samantha's and I figured that if I just stay in her company I'll feel better. I think she's starting to get tired of all the shit I'm bitching I'm doing. I feel bad so I'm just trying to stop bitching outloud.

Why won't he text me?? I haven't seen him online. Even then I wouldn't message him.


I feel like he's leading me on, he made me happy for that night. Just holding me, making me feel wanted. And now I feel like I've never been lonlier.

I was okay being single for so long, I've been used to not emotionally rely on anyone. Not to an extreme. I've opened myself up to him and then at the pure idea of us being together made me so happy. I had a sense of release and now I'm just in limbo.. I'm so freaking miserable.

He better god damn talk to me tonight. I swear I'm about to freaking cry from all the moods from this week. I don't know how much more I can take.